Sick

Hm.. Can say no one likes sick. I feel bad … [..] :
1. especially fell sick during weekend.
2. when missed CG, 2 services in a row, fellowship and to seek Him
3. leaving my sound crews work harder and longer to finish moving instruments back to Larkin.
4. when CG needs me to fetch people but I ended up felt dizzy with the never ending medicine.

But, if I really sick, please don’t buzz me. You know I can’t reject to help each time you asked.

Well,I still need my handset to be ON in case of any emergency.

New Bearing

I can feel I am not belong to JB. Yet, this does not matter anymore.
I just want to thank Adrian and Krissie for their support.

Somehow, they are not those people that want something from you.
They will not force you to do whatever they want. Yet, I know they just don’t want to pressure me to much.

Dear Adrian, I sincerely thank you for your discipleship, advices and teaching of Word of God since I joined cell group.

Dear Krissie, Thank you for your understanding and listening ears. I might had failed 2 subjects without your advice and sharing your revelations to me.

This lesson brings a clear message to me.

-Some girls are good and even holier than God. But you can not touch them because they have double up their price and think God will provide them a better guy aka a better cup of tea.

I am leaving, once I graduated.

After Ang, Stephen…
But before I leave, I’ll repay those who help me when I need helping hand the most.

Thank God. For putting Adrian and Krissie into my life.

Rejection

In the bottom of my heart, I thought I am walking parallel with the line you drawn between us. Before this, I really afraid somehow I may lose you as a friend if I crossed it. Right now, I don’t mind anymore. For your rejection had thrown me down into the deepest moment of my life. If you can remember, it was the week before organizing Habitudes. I stumbled, fell and wounded with just one message from you. From that on, I keep asking why you put me out of the line. It is because I am really not the guy that you want. Pretending I am alright is very tough since then. Knowing that you have someone in mind even like pouring a pail of water at me after I fell into the dark. Now, I can really felt the whole semester just going to end like that. Why did you:
left me those sweet messages since our first met?
draw the line so fast without giving me chance to prove myself?

Remember Jump Start you drop your specs? It was so stupid of me.
I never fail to be there for you but you never appreciate it and get colder from time to time.
I try to reply your message even have to run several floors to get reload coupon, yet..
… never mind anymore

Pouring out too much? Look at how I volunteer to serve and love Him. If I can have faith in Him, who is unseen, what do you think how I can treat a girl that I treasure?
I don’t wanna know who u will be wif. Dun explain, dun tell me. I will be fine..
Pls leave me some dignity..

Your Birthday

The moon is never so blue like tonight before. Maybe it is because I couldn’t find any reason to smile today. Yes, this should be why I am down at this valley again. I feel trapped and uneasy for everything. I promised myself to smile at you but that was last a few seconds when suddenly somewhere at another end of the world someone lights up fireworks out of nowhere. Somehow I felt that this special relationship will glow brightly in this beautiful starry night and yet, when the time has come the explosion will end. That will be the time when chemistry fades away between us.

Probably no one including you can feel the chemistry because I remember so well that night when you text me to draw a line between us and things totally changed since then. I started to avoid eye contact which I never thought I can do it so well nowadays. I told myself to act like a pro. A pro that doesn’t care about anything of you but deep inside…

I love you. However, the most important thing is to see you smile everyday. I believe that is the happiness that true love can provide. God bless. I am surprise with myself too that I can act so well.

Brand New Hope

Can’t wait to post this good news! I am very happy to see Eric got elected as secretary of IK. Of all posts, I believe that Eric is among the new star in IK. Not that we was in N7 but I still can’t cross the boundary between CGs. Yet, that is my biggest challenge to lay trust in this new committee. None of us have the equal status with Father but only Jesus. Because of His selfless and obedience, God lifted Him high.
I will have a very difficult and challenging time in implementing “no last minute style”. Doing things in eleventh hour always leave me limited choices and less quality work to be done in order to serve God and His people. What I need to make sure is to guide Jon well through his leadership. In order to ensure a healthy and strong growth in IK, I need to pay extra effort and work extra miles. This is the role I need to play behind the scene. I need to use my talents and experiences in advising the new board.
Lord, I need Your word to strengthen myself from time to time. This year I will not involve myself in any BGR. I need to be with You more than anyone. Crying out to you more makes me concern in protecting people’s heart more especially those deeply hurt.

AGM

Happy birthday to me… Yeah… This is the 2nd year since I accepted Christ. Yesterday I received a message from Tony, while driving my little red Kancil to airport. He invited me to interview at McD 24hrs IK committee board. Not surprise at all. (Huh? So proud!) Of course not lah... Here are those who were shortlisted for interview: Alvin, Jonathan, Rebecca, Mei Ping, Li Ting, Phui See, Eric Ng and Eric Woon, Sue Ping, Gabriny.

For me, I am kinda ‘h a p p y’ because got Eric Woon and Rebecca around. Hah! So good to have them in committee. Assuredly, many will be guessing who our big boss is. LOL! 100% Jonathan. Why?

1st hint : Sue Ping said Rebecca and I can be late for interview but Jon can’t.
2nd hint : When Adrian listed all posts, he stopped his eye contact at me and said logistic ministry. (It is less than 1s.)
3rd hint : It was Tony and Chin Ping that interviewed me.

Of course, these are all my own assumption. What I really concern is that how well we can work as a team? How can we let more people spiritually hunger? How committed we are, to put God first and let our own priorities come second place, third place…

Dis-appointment

Ok.. I am rejected by Shell.. Hm.. Probably that's not the path God wants me to set my future. Is alright. I had learn a lot from that interview. Nevertheless, I learnt that to be reach, working 9-5pm everyday can only secured a bowl of rice each meal and some income for the rest of my life. That is something more that we can learn from tertiary education. Not that just a normal student that pass up assignment on time but constantly renew my mindset each time facing different parts of life.

Life can be painted rainbowly. You can make it a heaven on earth or the other way round, with just a twist of mind. Friends, make fully use of your time! Happy New Year. Please dont just make more resolutions but set an appropriate amount. K.I.S.S. God bless.